My iPhone and Me

I celebrated my not so much-awaited birthday last January 17. I'm not being ungrateful still being able to breathe and alive. When one is passed the age of 30 (darn, now you got an idea how young I am), you just try not to count the succeeding birthdays.

But one thing that happened on this day which makes made it one of the best birthdays ever is my new gadget. I got myself an black iPhone 3Gs with a Globe Plan. I know this means extra bills to pay each month. But this is an iPhone we are talking about.

I've always dreamed of getting a high-end phone but never thought I would find myself 'tinkering' and toying with one of the best-- if not the best-- phone there is in the market. I know others have other phone brands in minds when it comes to the best there is. But it's iPhone for me.

Now, I will be much active online with this phones features. I should now be able to update my Facebook now.

Lost In A Shallow River

I feel lost.

It's not that I had no idea how on earth I got myself into this disappointing drama. The hints were all over the place and yet, somehow, I just shrugged them off like I do with dirt on slippers. But was I thinking that by continually neglecting those clues and refusing to address them they will just concede and burst like bubbles? If so, what was I thinking, for crying out loud?

Now, it's all coming back to haunt me like they have always been trying to. I admit I have been warned a lot of times with sporadic knocking on the head. I have been advised of in different and unexpected manners how things can get ugly. But I didn't budge. Now the inevitable is happening and it's hitting me harder.

I used to smile at the image I see when facing the mirror. Not that I was crazy, but I was proud of what it's making me see. I've seen myself in the mirror with my chin up and with eyes full of passion and motivation. I used to see me as a force not easy to mess around with. A worthy competitor who could have given anyone a run for their money any given day.

But the image seems kind of blurry now. I'm seeing those bended shoulders that used to be proud of how many battles were won. Are those eyes looking down like that of a sorry loser? The feisty eyes used to be filled with inspiration left not even a trace of its past. It's like they were never there in the first place. Or was there? I would like to believe they used to be there. I don't see me smiling now.

This person looking at the mirror right now is regrettably empty. The years have seen him beaten to a pulp without him realizing. He got dried up and drained after years of trying to make it to where he wanted yet finding himself drifting into the nothingness. He has become a shallow river making a lot of noise. Noise that can never hide the sad fact that it wasn't deep enough to drown anything or anyone who hinders its path.

I have become a shallow river.

But the hope of gaining that depth to make me matter is something I don't want to loose. I don't want to let go and give up. After all, this is one thing I'm sure I still have. Hope.

A New Lifestyle For A New Year

This year, I decided to start a different lifestyle. A healthy lifestyle is what I'm aiming for this year. I beleive it is never too late to start a good and healthy habit. But I'm no guru in healthy lifestyle. Actually, I'm one of those people you will never find in a gym sweating it out to loose those unwanted calories. But that was last year...and the years before last year.

People are now noticing my 'beer belly'. It seems like it really pains them to see me with my 'love handles' and that they had to tell me about it like I'm not aware myself. I have nothing against people who prefers eating those delicious and mouth-watering killer foods. Actually, I am the last person who would abhor such love for eating and great food. But this year, I have to say my farewell to this 'beer belly' which I have been nurturing since few year back. And did I mention I don't drink even? Such a pity, right?

Though I've heard tons of comments on how expensive Fitness First's membership is and that other known gyms are way much cheaper, still I signed up for a 12-year program. The gym inside the mall is just a walking distance from my place while the other gyms are few kilometers away so that settled the score. And besides, the expensive membership of the gym is working as an additional motivation of some sort to me-- since I have to make every cent count.

I'm still on my fourth day working out and trying out gym machines and equipments that are new to me. I've been observing people on how things are done inside the gym and to the point of following others with what they are trying out. The place/gym is conducive, I say, for working out and pampering oneself indeed. The locker rooms reminds me of how it was in the seminary back in college-- minus the couch and television. And I see drinking water stations in almost all corners of the gym.

Earlier today, I was aching to join the group exercise but, I guess, I am still shy to start dancing/exercising together with those women older than I am. But perhaps, tomorrow will be different when I will once again hear the beats. Move aside, maam!

Goodbye 2009...Hello 2010 !!!

I spent the final hours of the year 2009 at my girlfriend's house to welcome 2010 and what it brings. The same time last year, I was also here but it was a bit different scene. Lola Tele was still around and the whole Santos Family celebrated the season all hopeful for her recovery. She passed away just few months ago though.

Baked Macaroni

As almost every New Year (or Christmas) Season, Sheril baked her famously delicious baked macaroni. Knowing her, she bakes it with all of her expertise and finesse. I can say that she is consistent in aspects that involve her precious time and efforts when it comes to how the result would be. Shen does almost everything without any compromise to quality. And that doesn't exclude even baking or cooking. Well, good for those who she would cook or bake for, right?

Short-lived Vacation

For most of us, the vacation this season is somehow short-lived. Well, I believe it always is when it comes to spending quality time and happy moments with loved ones. Time is somewhat few minutes short every time you find yourself enjoying. It's not that I'm complaining but I only got to spend two days off from work. For years now, I get lucky if I get to find myself shouting "Happy New Year!" while not on a call. Call center life has been eating up my time for almost 6 years now. So I guess, I still got lucky this year.

New Year's Resolution

Now that the new year has just introduced itself to us, we can see ourselves 'shouting' to the world our the resolutions that we have on our list. No one knows how this "tradition(?)" came to life but it's undeniably the most common practice every year. Well, whatever our list have-- some of them might not even find it's realization the whole year-- let us hope things will be better for each of us this year.

So do you have your New Year's Resolution list full now? If not, well, better start writing yours down. Good luck!