It's Saturday night and I'm alone in the apartment. Not to mention it's All Saint's Day. So I tried to find ways to keep myself busy to pass time. I tried to key in my thoughts at the moment. They have been trying to get my attention as if they wish to be set free. They are clamoring for freedom. Freedom from the mind that's filled with concepts and opinions not put into use.
Recently, I made a trifling progress. Blogging let loose these thoughts and fulfilled their destiny to be shared. I know I still have to open the cage more often for these poor guys that are trapped in the corners of my mind.
My emotions are no different. They've helped me make decisions too. Decisions those were significant to develop maturity. They made me stronger after every hurdle, regardless if I pass with flying colors or just got lucky to withstand the torture. They kept me afloat. Never let me drown in whatever depression or disappointments, or at least, not always.
I had my share of waterloos and I know that still more will come to challenge me. But I believe I am standing on solid ground. Snags are out there to shake and beat me to a pulp but I'm sure I'll find myself looking at it in the eye. Turning my face away from it should be last thing I'll consider, the stress is in the "should be". Though I know I can but apparently there are instances that I tend to forget about facing them and attempts to turn around instead…or worst, turn away from them. The scare gets me sometimes.
The world is not fair most of the time (for most of us). I know you'll agree with me on this; whether you're on the favored side or on the I-wish-the-world-would-devour-me-now side. Even if we are on the later, we know that it will just pass, or we wish it would soon. We want it to end and leave us be even with the thought that another battle will come after the other. They will continue to challenge us, whether we charge or step back.
But every battle fought is a scar left in us...the scar that reminds us how we fought the scuffle. Best fought battle or not, one thing can be said, we can learn from them on how we want the next will turn out.
I don't know about you but I believe I should be in touch with my thoughts and emotions to guide me thru my own little battles. For the past few years, I've armed myself with them. I lost some of them and also just got lucky surviving a few.
At least, I am charging on.
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