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15 October 2008

a piece of your cake

"Are you ready to cut off your head and place your foot on it? If so, come; Love awaits you! Love is not grown in a garden, nor sold in the marketplace; whether you are a king or a servant, the price is your head, and nothing less. Yes, the cost of the elixir of love is your head! Do you hesitate? 0 miser, It is cheap at that price!"

I had a conversation with some friends about how one should love. I believe one has to share a piece of herself to the one that she is mostly endeared with to show love. Whether we like it or not, it really entails sharing what you have for the person. Sharing something a person doesn't have in the first place is just unthinkable. Or it would mean sharing nothing at all.

Some people think that loving should'nt have to be giving everything you got. You leave something for yourself. You don't share the whole cake...save a slice for you to enjoy. These people stand by the principle of not laying down all the cards. The whole idea of this is for you to have something to help you rise if ever the fall is inevitable. If everything is screwed up then you will have something left to shield you from the piercing ridicules and we-told-you-so. Or give you some sanity when you're unfortunately left on your own when no friends are around you while your picking up the pieces.

However, still there are some who thinks that love should be all-out. They don't see any reason for saving something for yourself when you are really so into the person. You should'nt limit yourselves in showing how much you love the person. Life is short so love all you can and show how you really feel. The happiness in showing the greatness of their love for the other person is already by itself satisfaction for these romantics. Lucky are the people who find love in the arms of these people. They will get the most of them.

We all have our ways. We show love the way we believe it to be.

I love with all my heart but I know I have to keep something for me. Besides, how can people love me if there's nothing in me that makes me desireable? I like them to want a piece of my cake...

30 September 2008

Breathe...

" I used to believe that anything was better than nothing. Now I know that sometimes nothing is better. ~Glenda Jackson"

I definitely love to talk. People I know couldn't agree more on this. My friends would ask if there's something wrong when they don't hear me talk just for a second...well, it's an exaggeration but your know what I mean. I love to share stories. I tell them jokes(even those that aren't really solicited and funny). And most of the time, sing lyrics that I make up and make sounds...some people find them funny. I talk, talk, and talk...most of the time...But what they don't know is, somewhere in me finds dancing trees to the tune of the winds relaxing. Watching the dogs chase each other like kids playing is pure joy. I also look at clouds as they form different shapes and really be amazed. And weird but true, I feel at peace observing vehicles pass along the busy streets; jeepneys picking up passengers just anywhere and motorists pissed by them. The watching-the-vehicles thing I learned from my dad, i guess. He makes it a habit to go out and watch these vehicles zoom their ways through the busy streets back in our place. I never thought I would find such simple pleasure in something I never quiet understood...or tried not to.

As I examine these so called activities where I'm not doing anything, I realize that these are rare times where no words are necessary to achieve such simple bliss. no jokes to crack, no stories to tell, and i don't have to come up with new sounds to imitate.These maybe weird examples but the same is true with others when it comes to finding ourselves at peace. Sadly, we sometimes forget to spend some time to indulge ourselves with these joys. We are so busy doing a lot of things yet each day ends with us feeling so stressed and burned out. Doing nothing and just be an observer really has it's own benefit.

Probably spending some time on your own doing nothing would rejuvenate you. you might get the necessary energy to spark you up. Sitting by the shore, a walk in the park, attending to your orchids and pets, and perhaps even just taking your time sitting on that throne of yours inside your comfort room. Just find time to get out of your daily routine doing things that keep you worried.

I'm not promoting laziness here. Just a time off from those routines that eats up your life. It sometimes helps to do nothing and breathe so we can get ourselves ready to face what lies ahead. Or just to feel relieved, i guess.